Where shall I begin? An abbreviated history...

First, we need to take a few steps back in time so you have a clearer picture of my thought processes and how I arrived at this point in my life. Feel free to enjoy this post with a cup of hot tea!

I have always loved kids and knew I wanted to be a mom some day. I also knew I would have my children at a later age than mom had my brother and I. I grew up, attended college, found a job, and another job, began a career, made a few moves to NC - always landing back in FL - and had some fun along the way. Time continued to pass (as it usually does) and after several relationships, I wasn't finding 'Mr. Right'. There was one who was very special to me and to this day I cannot help but wonder 'what if'. He continues to pop into my mind every now and again and I think he always will. All of my relationships were with wonderful guys and though they really liked me, something was not quite right on my side. I can't really say what wasn't right in each situation, but will simply say it's something you just know.

I carried on with my life and enjoyed my job. I dated a bit, but being lucky in love was not yet in the cards for me. There came a point where I just decided to return to school and all my energies were redirected to obtaining my MBA without any distractions.

Once that goal was reached (in mid-2000), I thought I would try again to venture into the 'dating game'. Well, fast forward a couple of years and nothing in my status had changed. Just added disappointment. Some friends tried to set me up, but I quickly realized that they surely did not know me as well as I thought as certainly they would never have thought to fix me up with him!! I gave up again for a while and eventually tried online dating. Well, this was another adventure and I certainly entertained it a for a short time - though I will say, I'm not the ideal candidate for this way of meeting new people. I did give it an honest effort and even met someone who wow'd me. Things seemed to 'click' right away and I found myself excited about this relationship prospect. This hadn't happened in quite some time now and the feeling was wonderful and certainly welcome in my life. It wasn't long before I found myself disappointed again. And yet another mental and emotional set-back since I don't take these things lightly.

So, here I was - mid-2004 still ready to meet someone wonderful, and start a new life and our own family. I found myself more stressed since I was hearing the loud ticking of that clock. Even though I knew I was ready to find my man, I also knew time was necessary to nurture a relationship before marriage and children. After much careful consideration and lots of soul-searching, I decided that I would start my own family as a single mom. So, here you are with me....we are almost at 'today', but first, just a little more history which I will save for my next post.